for all those who did'nt know and were wondering why i was so sad

[Ukharleybabe]

Hi guys this is more for those who did'nt know and were not on our back up site and were wondering why i was leaving the thankyou message for my internet family
On saturday i found out i was pregnant for the second time Dh had asked me not to say anything but me and my big mouth could'nt resist and i posted on the sister site on MSN that i was indeed pregnant, then on Tuesday i had to post the god awful news that i had indeed started to misscarry again for the second time. Sad to say this is partly my own fault The consultant who i saw yesturday who i add is a wonderful man did tell me that there is a reason they tell you to wait 2 months before concieveing after having methotrexate from the ectopic and it is because sometimes traces of the drug can hang around in your system and as it strips your body of all the goodness ie folic acid etc which a growing feotus needs it can cause a subsequent pg to fail hence the suituation i am in i was just being so impatient that is my problem
so i had to tell everyone that i had indeed lost it again and i felt such a fool
but as expected and i think i knew deep down you were all wonderful to me and made me feel so much better and i stopped feeling like a fool
thats why i posted in here the thankyou message
DH and i are still going to try but life for the past 8 months has been babies babies babies and we have only been married 12 months so we are just going to let nature takes it's course and see what happens
i could never leave this site i love it way too much
anyway i'm going off to the states in July to try to track my son down there have been sitings of him so hopefully i may get him back i'm on summer break then till sept when i have to return to work
so i'll be around till then but i will have access to a pc when i'm in the states so i can still check up on you all
anyway lots of love from me and DH for the wonderful support
Tracy xx

[Joybp]

Oh Tracy, you mustn't feel like a fool for being happy about your news.

I'm so very sorry that you lost this little bean.

Fingers crossed that you succeed just as fast when you get the all-clear.

Take care


Joy
~ x ~

[Allie]

((((Tracy))))
I'm sorry about your news & I do understand about feeling impatient
I hope you are able to find your son ~ it must be awful being separated from him ~ will your Dh be going with you?

Allie xx

[Ukharleybabe]

Hi Allie Unfortunatly Dh can't go it's difficult for him during August to get time off work He is a bomb disposal technition and they have to go away in August for 4 weeks so thats why it is a good time for me to go see if i can try to trace Ryan I had an e-mail from a police officer i know in the states whio is working on the case and they said that they were last seen in Texas so they are still trying to trace him i even thought odf e-mailing Dog the bounty hunter I love his show on Bravo and he finds criminals and well i'm sure he could find my ex LOL he is a criminal he is being done on a kidnapping charge it's a long story but he will be arrested when they catch up with him this may take a while but at least i will feel like i am doing something I have a friend in Chicago i am going to stay with and we are going to try searching for him she works for the state police so she has contacts too
who knows but i'm still going to try for the little one but probably wait until sept time maybe we will see
thankyou Joy and you Allie for the lovely messages it means a lot
Love Tracy xx

Awww Hell Tracy, I'm sorry to hear this my love.

Good luck finding your boy.

Dizz

[ann]

i wish you all the luck in the world finding your son, and when you do i hope they throw the book at your ex.. what is it about ex's they are complete bas*ards

love ann

[emmamac]

Tracey I'm so sorry to hear this sad news and I really feel for you. Sending big hugs honey.xxx

[Jasmine]

Hi Tracey

I've just read your post as have only just got back on the boards. I'm soooo sorry. The way you explained what happened was so matter of fact so you obviously understand and know why this happened but even so, it's another hope-raiser, hope-dasher that you can do without isn't it.

The most surprising things often happen when you're least expecting them and concentrating on something else so I think going to the States is a great idea and I truly hope you find your boy. With your friend working for the police, you have a head start on anyone else trying to do the same thing.

Is it August you're going? Sending lots of love to you in the meantime.

Jasmine
x

Tracy - I've just caught up with your news - I'm so sorry about the pg and very hopeful about your trip to the States.

In the meantime, just sending you some big hugs

Love, L-L xxxx

[loubylou]

Hi, only just been able to post today, so sorry to read about your mc sending huge hugs and also lots of luck on you trip.

Lou