The worst 24 hours of my life..very very sensitive

[SharonR]

Following on from my "Help please" thread on the pregnancy board, my brown discharge worsened, and indeed turned red. I ended up being admitted to hospital about midnight on Monday night with chronic pain and bleeding. In fact the pain was so bad they gave me morphine. I was losing so much blood they put a drip in my hand in case I needed a blood transfusion...

A scan revealed that our lovely beautiful baby had died at about 8 weeks, so I had a missed miscarriage. sorry this is really hard to write.......
the baby looked so perfect, you could see everything really clearly, just no heartbeat.............

We chose to have the D&C because we couldn't bear it to happen at home with the children, I think seeing something like that happen to me would probably scar Megan for life.....

The doctors were so lovely, and on the operating table, one of them held my hand and stroked my forehead, I was crying unconsolably, and was also in a lot of pain and he said "we'll send you off to sleep really quickly sweetheart, and when you wake up the pain will be gone".......

When I came round, and realisation dawned, I just started crying again, and was calling out "my poor baby, my poor baby....." , my care nurse could hardly contain herself.....

I was discharged yesterday evening, got home about 7pm.

To say we are devastated, well, that doesn't even go part way there... and we have still to tell Megan that her baby brother/sister is now a new star in the sky.

I didn't think I'd be able to write this today, but I knew you'd all be worried about me, and I'm so sorry that I have to tell you such sad news.

Sharon.